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Lonelyness...

Sat Oct 10, 2009, 10:31 AM
You know what's ironical?
Today my mom told me that my second name, Eleonora, means Light of God. Well, as far as I know God hasn't bestowed much light upon me.
I've been sick for a few weeks now, and as usual 'm too damned stubborn to go to the doctor 'cause I know he won't be able to help me. Last time I went, the only thing he said was: "Your head- and stomachaches are caused by stress, you should try to take it easy." Easy for him to say, he doesn't know anything about me or my life!
My life's been all crap lately, and my head is a mess, I just can't seem to find peace and for some reason I can't find the time to do all the stuff that I still need to do. There are just so many things I need to do!
Lately I've also been feeling really lonely, I spent almost all my free time with my two best friends, but I still feel kinda lonely. Especially at night, I've been having troubles getting to sleep for a few weeks now. When I'm alone in my bed, and my mom, sister and dog have already fallen asleep, I always feel alone, on those moments I just want to hold someone. I want to hold someone, and I want that person to hold me, so I won't feel lonely anymore, I just want to feel loved...


School has been killing me lately, we've just finished our test week (10 big tests in one week!) and they don't even give us one free weekend! We have like 5 days to write 3 essays, one of them is a book report, one has something to do with art and the last one is writing a chapter of our art-history book about Egyptian art (the previous chapter took me almost 11 hours!). I'll probably have to cancel my horse-riding again, so I can finish my school work.
I also feel kinda sad for my dad, he's been doing really well lately and he hasn't been drinking any alcohol since he went to the withdrawal clinic. However I only get the chance to see him once a month and he asked me to go shopping with him today, I really need some clothes and it would be good to see him again (cause he feels like we're abandoning him) but thanks to my schoolwork I couldn’t go.

I also wanted to say I'm really grateful, there was a guy last night at Flintys (a place where people from 12-20 hang around) and we spend hours just holding each other while sitting on a couch. He made me feel really happy and I finally didn't felt lonely anymore. But I don't know how things are between us right now because I only get to see him on Friday and on MSN you never know whether something is meant sarcastic or not.

Please forgive me my bad English and my whining.

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Gravity (Wolf's Rain)
  • Eating: cookies

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  • Current Residence: Netherlands
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: M
  • Interests: Horses, dogs, Wolfs, Amine, Manga, Drawing, Gaming
  • Favourite band or musician: Don't know, I like many but lately I am getting interested in japanese musicians
  • Favourite genre of music: Different (depends on my mood)
  • Favourite artist: ??? maybe you??
  • Favourite photographer: Shabanu-love and me!!! check our account
  • Favourite style of art: Almost everything
  • Operating System: Hands.. and sometimes Photofiltre(sucks)
  • Favourite game: Definately Okami! If you haven't payed it yet, Go buy it!! Me also lieks LoZ Twilight Princess
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2, NDS & WII
  • Favourite cartoon character: A lot =3
  • Personal Quote: Imagination sets us free to be just what we want to be!
  • Tools of the Trade: pen, camera, pencil, rubber

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:iconcherry-sama:
Thanks for the watch!
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:iconsqinny:
your welcome! i just love your okami pictures:heart:
Sorry for not commenting on them but i was kinda busy the other day but i'll comment them later:D

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I'm an Anime addicted Wolflover, Deal with it! ;3

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And the last thing she saw was a pure red flash and the last scent she smelled was the iron smell of blood. ©Sqinny
:iconcherry-sama:
Thank you so much~
:3

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:iconjukajo:
thanks a lot for the watch! :lol:
dankje :giggle:

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:iconsqinny:
Ur welcome:D
I just love your wolf art :heart: and your Deviant ID is really cute =3

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I'm an Anime addicted Wolflover, Deal with it! ;3

"It is whitin the depts of despair that we humans find true happyness!" Diana screamed.
And the last thing she saw was a pure red flash and the last scent she smelled was the iron smell of blood. ©Sqinny
:iconjukajo:
thank you very much!! i'm glad you think so :D :hug:

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Thank you for the favorite on my Polka Dot Panda Buttons! I hope you stop by again, and continue to enjoy my new works!

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:iconsqinny:
Your welcome:heart:

I just love all those things you sell on customcospley.com!
maybe i can convince my mom to buy some of your stuff for me:D

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I'm an Anime addicted Wolflover, Deal with it! ;3

"It is whitin the depts of despair that we humans find true happyness!" Diana screamed.
And the last thing she saw was a pure red flash and the last scent she smelled was the iron smell of blood. ©Sqinny
:iconkarzi01:
im not sure if your still a tulio fan, but if you are you should check out ~defying-gravitycomic there is going to be a comic about tulio there!!!

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... In the end it doesnt matter, the world keeps moving faster and faster, and the sea of hopes and dreams is just the same.. - ~FeoranPride
:iconsqinny:
Yea I know:D
I've already added them to my DevWatch:D
Can't wait 'till the first page!

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I'm an Anime addicted Wolf- and horselover, Deal with it!

Shanty, please protect me, let the dark clouds in my head flow away and watch evrey step I take.

Diana, please take me with you! Help me find the way to happyness.

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